Dear Diary,
I feel like shit. It's been a while since I've truly felt inspired to create anything. As a digital artist, I've always relied on my creativity to fuel my passion for this craft, but lately, I've been feeling drained and uninspired.
I used to spend hours on end in front of my computer, playing around with different techniques and experimenting with various forms of digital art. But now, even the thought of sitting down at my desk and opening up my design software feels overwhelming.
I know I need to rekindle my artistic passion, but I'm not quite sure where to start. I've tried taking breaks and exploring different types of art, but nothing seems to be working. Maybe it's because I'm too focused on the end result, rather than the process of creating.
I think I need to take a step back and remember why I fell in love with digital art in the first place. I need to embrace the journey, the mistakes, and the discoveries that come with creating something new. I need to let go of my perfectionism and allow myself to play and experiment, without worrying about whether or not it's good enough.
I'm going to start small by setting aside time each day to simply doodle and play around with my tools. I want to reconnect with the joy of creating and rediscover my passion for digital art.
I know it won't be easy, but I'm ready to put in the work and find my way back to the artist I used to be.
Going Analytical mode
- Try getting an e-ink tablet? This could be a more expensive solution than necessary…
- I don’t want to spend more money than I need to.. ex. I don’t want to fall into that trap where you buy really expensive art supplies to try to make your art “better” when what you really need to do is sit down and practice.
- Thinking about it more, that isn’t what is motivating me.
- My motivation → fall in love with art again.
Why did I fall out of love with art?
Tried to reprogram my brain to not want to draw all the time.
Why have my previous attempts at falling in love with art again failed?
- Trying too hard.
- I could be forcing it.
What is my motivation for falling back in love with art?
- I promised myself as a child that I wouldn’t give up my dreams. I wouldn’t let the world take away from me the one and only thing I loved by myself.
- I want to create a comic for her - for little me who was stuck in her room all by herself all day without a friend in the world. The me who pretended that the cartoon characters on screen were her friends because she failed so miserably to connect with those around her. The me who ultimately used those same shows to find common points of interest and communities online where I felt like I could express a true, new side of me that had never seen the light of day.
- I want - no, I need the characters I see on the screen today to be the characters me of 10 years ago needed to see. I will be the change that I want to see.
